insomnia hours

its been a while

2007-03-07T09:26:28Z

hello all.. I haven't posted in a very long time. Lets get ya'll upto speed. I am now living up Pottstown, Pa trying to find work in Ny and philly while paying cheap rent living here. I haven't found any work but I am keep myself productive. I am very bored living up here in Bumfuck nowhere and I miss all of my friends. Hopefully my plans will not crumble away

thats all I can think off and I know it isn't much. I'll fill in the holes later.

r.

no_dammit @ 2006-10-08T20:16:00

2006-10-08T20:17:51Z

moving up north in T minus 6 days. Things are going very well

r.

p.s.
I won a trip to the bahamas

very very well

shitty circumstances

2006-04-02T07:49:08Z

It's funny knowing when something is going to end. It seems to matter more when the end comes. I am starting to come to the conclusion that I think I might like getting myself into these positions.

Shitty circumstances
r.

blah

2006-01-15T06:29:34Z

I am tired of this town with its people. This town should have done me in when it had the chance.

r.

no_dammit @ 2005-11-05T01:11:00

2005-11-05T06:15:07Z

things tend to never work out.

same trend, same bullshit, I don't need any of this anymore

why do I care?

thank you for being like everyone else. Thanks.

no_dammit @ 2005-08-23T16:24:00

2005-08-23T20:25:26Z

party 520 east 37th street

things like to get worse

2005-08-05T19:20:13Z

well I am moving out the downtown area to royal oaks on eisenhower. For some reason my room keeps on getting smaller and smallereverytime I am forced to move. The rent is cheap but my closterphobia gets worse. Rent is cheap though. I wis I could have a big room at least something bigger than the room I have right now. I don't have money to be happy. Another issue is that both my parents need to have surgery. My mother has hernias in her pelvis and abdomend and my father had a small heart attack the other night and he will have to have surgery to remove the scar tissue. There will be no one to take care of them bc my sister is going to college. Another issue is that a lot of my friends are leaving at the end of the month including the girl I ave been seeing. I need more financial aid to cover more school expences bc if I don't I won't be able to finish school. Things don't like to get better just a whole different level of bad. I don't want to do this anymore :0(

no_dammit @ 2005-08-04T09:44:00

2005-08-04T13:46:15Z

http://www.myspace.com/imagnmm

no_dammit @ 2005-08-02T01:23:00

2005-08-02T05:24:13Z

when I turn out the lights and nobody comes to mind. Will I be missed?

no_dammit @ 2005-07-25T01:59:00

2005-07-25T06:05:45Z

Am I really vague?

no_dammit @ 2005-07-25T00:49:00

2005-07-25T04:56:17Z

I really don't know what I am doing and I am staarting to freak out.

no_dammit @ 2005-07-22T17:40:00

2005-07-22T21:47:21Z

I finally got my external fixed/ Now I ahve all my music all my delicious music. MMMM

no_dammit @ 2005-07-12T16:37:00

2005-07-12T20:41:08Z

My phone is broken but I can still receive and send out calls. Its just the ace of the phone that is all sorts of messed up. I can't see who i am calling or visa versa. The biggest problem is that I have completely lost all of my numbers and I do mean all of them. So if still wnat to stay in contact with me and also if you love me send me your phone number.

I need to spend my time doing better things

2005-07-06T00:29:10Z

You scored as Mushrooms. Shrooms! You're still goin for one of the most natural drugs. You'd like to visit a whole other world, and see things you've never seen before. Fucking trippy.

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Inhalents

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Marijuana

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Cocaine

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Alcohol

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no_dammit @ 2005-06-23T02:32:00

2005-06-23T06:39:06Z

Well boys and girls Ricky is finally on vacation. Martha's Vineyard here I come.

apathy is a lonely way to live

2005-06-12T06:20:04Z

I don't know how to feel anymore. Everything has seemed so bland to me and not lately its been a while since I have felt serenly happy about something. playing lone ranger is no fun it hasnt't been and I don't think it ever will. The thing that is agrivating to me is that I don't know how to make it better. Its uncomfortable seeing others find what they want. I am happy for them but I am also envious of them. I have stopped caring. I should care but I feel nothing. Just like my mind, which is empty. Apathy is a lonely way to live.

I need to feel something even if it is pain.

This is the shoot I am working on this month

2005-06-04T09:30:51Z

http://flickr.com/photos/ciscovaras

no_dammit @ 2005-06-02T06:41:00

2005-06-02T10:47:37Z

I finally got the entire savannah experience last night.

I was mugged at gun point.

awesome.

no_dammit @ 2005-05-25T04:34:00

2005-05-25T08:36:22Z

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I think I am done well I can be done now bc I turned in my tape but I don't have to show until thursday but I think my project really sucks. So I don't know what to do or I do but I am tired of doing anything.

I need something different. please

no_dammit @ 2005-05-18T14:55:00

2005-05-18T18:59:52Z

who is going to be here over the summer?

PArty

2005-05-12T18:41:50Z

Hey everyone if I haven't called you sorry but I am having a cocktail party at my place on saturday 9-930. There are two reasons why I am doing this. 1) I haven't seen ya'll in a long time and 2) I am shooting a documentary baout college stress especially if you are about to go into the real world. If your willing to talk great but if not then I would like it if you came to be social and have a good time. Hope you come

Ricky

ps please be generious and bring something

no_dammit @ 2005-05-09T16:39:00

2005-05-09T20:45:33Z

"some men see things that are and ask why? I dream things that Never were and ask why not?"

andrew k stone

no_dammit @ 2005-05-05T04:12:00

2005-05-05T08:19:33Z

so I am retyping my script and I dont know how it really is. Every time I finish prof reading the pages I have a good feeling about it but hwne I start reading it again it just doesnt seem right. I don't know. I guess I need some fresh eyes. So who is willing to read this script to tell me how it really is? Whoever wants to can. I just need some help that is all.

This is my log line for the script.

Generation of comfort is a movie where allot of evils are just dying phoenix's being reserected into the pure beauty they once were or wanted to be.

no_dammit @ 2005-05-02T07:13:00

2005-05-02T11:19:04Z

I don't want to do any of this anymore.

I just want to disaper for a little while maybe it will make sense then.

3 things that I believe in

2005-04-29T09:09:04Z

sigh

apathy is the key to happiness.

secrets keep me warm at night.

and

Regret is only for the weak minded.